Posted on 2012.06.03 at 16:32
Current Mood: crazy
I'm not sure which is worse. The bloated, greasy, completely sexless feeling I have when on hormonal birth control, or the constant state of sex mad, persistent horndogness I have when off of it. If Don were here, that would be an easy choice. Without a partner, and considering how long it takes me to get off with a vibrator compared to sex, it's incredibly frustrating. Can't study, thinking about fucking X person in various scenarios. Can't concentrate in class, thinking about blowing Y professor in a schoolgirl uniform under his desk.
Gah! Yes, you guys only get pervy status updates these days because I can't talk about them anywhere else.
Posted on 2012.05.01 at 23:07
Current Mood: amused
A perfect example of how my and Don's gender roles can be switchy sometimes.
Don: "Let's go cuddle on the bed."
Me: "I'd rather fuck."
And then we did.
Posted on 2012.03.01 at 08:23
Current Mood: worried
Sorry for the lack of updates. With the advent of Facebook and my new blog, there's just not much for me to say here. I'll probably abandon LJ entirely soon.
Been crazy busy lately. Busting my ass and studying harder than I have in my life, but it's been paying off. I'm making straight A's so far this semester. I still can't believe I aced my pharmacology II midterm. It had something like 140 drugs on it when we counted them up.
This afternoon I return to that internal specialist I mentioned in my last post to discuss my blood work results. No news is good news, so that means something came out wrong. I'm just praying it wasn't the ANA test, because that would indicate an autoimmune problem, most likely lupus. And if it's lupus, due to my symptoms (pain, numbness, tingling sensations in my extremities) it would mean that I'm making antibodies against my nervous tissue. That does NOT have a good prognosis.
Anyway, if you want to continue keeping up with me, my new blog is: http://mydvmvacation.blogspot.com/
Posted on 2012.01.21 at 01:15
Current Mood: worried
I'm seeing an internal specialist next Friday. Been having dull, aching pains in my legs for the last six or seven months. Within the last month, tingling and numbness in my feet got added. I saw a doctor and they tested for diabetes (of course) which my blood sugar was picture perfect. They diagnosed me with sciatica and put me on anti-inflammatory meds. It didn't work, so I went back today and got referred to the internal doc for a full blood workup.
I just really need some piece of mind that this isn't vascular. As long as I'm reassured that I'm not going to start throwing clots to my brain and lungs, I'll be happy. I have some indications that it's not: I have no heat, redness or edema in my legs. And it's bilateral, usually thrombosis presents unilaterally. So that's encouraging. Still, my legs hurt and my feet almost always have pins and needles sensation, which is downright scary when you don't know what it is.
C'mon next Friday? Even though I have two exams... Ugh. If it turns out they can't find out what's wrong and my symptoms get worse I'll have to duck out of this semester in order to go back to the States to have an MRI done. Luckily my school is pretty forgiving of medical emergencies and I'll be able to repeat the semester. But that means I won't graduate with my friends, which makes me really sad.
Posted on 2012.01.19 at 21:43
Current Mood: happy
So I got some "omg so exciting" encouragement this evening!
By now most of you should know that I want to practice lab animal medicine. I love rats and mice, and as much as I used to think I'd go into exotic animal clinical practice, the further I get in vet school the more I'm leaning toward spending my career in research and lab animal medicine. It makes sense, since as much as I love reptiles and birds as well as rodents, and I really do enjoy working with owners, the biggest impact I can make on the welfare of rodents is via working in the research field.
I've been a member of the American Society of Lab Animal Practitioners chapter at my school for the last four semesters. I met Dr. Brad Goodwin through them, who is basically the biggest name in lab animal medicine. This guy sits on major accrediting bodies and has fingers in every honey pot in the field. He's also a super nice guy. We've talked a bit about my work with Harlan before, but this semester I'm taking his lab animal elective. We've had the opportunity to talk a lot more and tonight he basically told me that I've got a brilliant future ahead of me (actually, that's a direct quote) and to call him anytime I needed help finding work in the future.
This guy can open almost any door you want in lab animal medicine. To have him as a friend is good. To have him essentially tell you that he'll help you find a good job is remarkable.
Posted on 2012.01.16 at 23:51
Current Mood: pissed off
Very angry right now. We got an email Saturday morning about a faculty member who was robbed at gunpoint outside of his home. This makes the third time a Ross faculty/staff member has had a gun pointed at them since I got here last January. But I'm angry because it was one of my favorite professors this time. A sweet old man who bends over backwards for his students. I'd dearly love to kick the coward in the balls right now.
Posted on 2012.01.07 at 22:16
Current Mood: lonely
Ugh, I hate this part! Every break that I go home there's always a transition period when I return to St. Kitts from being with Don 24/7 and constant touching, kissing, cuddling and just having the physical presence of another person always there to going back to my one bedroom apartment and the quiet of my lonely villa. It's agonizing the first few days. There's this sense of loss and a void and everything is too still, too quiet, too empty. Eventually I get through it and wind up loving living on my own again, with my space and my things and my cats. I actually really enjoy the quiet and solitude once I get back in the swing of things. It's just that crappy adjustment period that sucks balls.
Posted on 2012.01.06 at 13:55
Current Mood: sore
So apparently I have a cervix of steel. They tried to put in Mirena and after three attempts and multiple instruments, it became apparent that I'd need to be medically dilated before anything was going into my uterus. Since I'm leaving the country, um today, they offered me Implanon instead. I was hesitant because I went off of the pill due to excessive bloating and weight gain and this implant also has systemically active levels of hormone, although less than the pill. But the benefit of 3 years of worry free, effort free sex seemed worth it so I went for it.
It's a tiny piece of silicone implanted in your inner arm around the biceps area, just under the skin. I was like, "Oh, like a microchip! Wait... That's a big fucking needle." They numb you up so you don't feel anything but the initial OH JESUS IT BURNS LIKE FIRE novacaine. However, the bruise it left is huge and very tender. It makes me grateful I've never had invasive surgery because fuck, this hurts and it was just a superficial needle minor surgery.
Posted on 2011.12.29 at 18:07
Current Mood: bouncy
YAY NEW VIBRATORS!!!
Today I bought two new toys. I like my Rabbit, but honestly sometimes it's just a lot of work and I'm feeling lazy and don't want to bother. So I wanted a hands-free orgasm. I heard about the We Vibe 3, a G-spot and clitoral stimulator that is rechargable (no batteries!) and has a handheld remote. Downside, it's $140. Upside, everything. So I went and talked to the woman working at Cirilla's and she sang its praises (she has the We 2, which is cheaper but doesn't have a remote). So fuck it, it was my present to myself. I can't have sex for approximately 10 1/2 months out of the year, I say this is a fucking investment in my marriage. I'll let you guys know what I think once I've used it.
I also picked up a tiny but powerful little bullet by Evolution for Don and I to use while I'm home. It's got that velvety texture that I prefer to smooth, hard surface vibrators. I know some people love super lubed up, slick sensations during sex but not me. I actually have to stop and get a towel or something while using traditional vibes because I can't get the friction I need to apply pressure where I want it. Anyway, this tiny little bullet runs on three watch batteries and comes with six of them (yay!). It's more pricey than most bullets at $22, but honestly it feels like it will be well worth it.
ETA: Verdict on the bullet is in. It's REALLY intense, even on the lowest setting. Which I actually found kind of distracting and even Don remarked on it. So discrete, no. For very sensitive people, no. Luckily there was a pulsating function that wasn't quite as buzzy and worked really nicely. I mainly bought it so that I could orgasm in positions other than missionary, which is the only way that I can vaginally orgasm at the moment. I want to train myself to reach orgasm in other positions and the best way to do that is to, well, orgasm in other positions with the vibe a few times and then slowly phase the vibe out.
Posted on 2011.11.27 at 12:47
Current Mood: touched
One of my class representatives just made a post on our class (RUSVM Green Semester Class of 2014 represent!) Facebook page thanking me for my presentation on iguana metabolic bone disease a few weeks ago and a few of my classmates chimed in. And I started crying. I am such a softie sometimes.